Friday, April 27, 2012

Four-Fill-In-Fun . . .


Last week I started following Hilary at Feeling Beachie.  Every Friday she has a Blog Hop called Four Fill-In Fun.  She gives you Four Statements with blanks left in and you are supposed to fill in the blanks.  Here's this weeks statements:
1.       I never ___ when I ___
2.       I used to __but I stopped
3.       My favorite picture of all time is of _______________
4.       When it gets dark I think about _______________

My Answers:

2.  I used to WATCH SOAP OPERAS (don't laugh) but I stopped. 
3.  My favorite picture of all is hard to choose.  But this is one that's definitely one of my faves.  It's of Sarah and her Daddy in Hong Kong. 

4.  When it gets dark I think about all the things I have to do in the coming days and weeks.

Not it's YOUR turn.  How would YOU fill these in?

Friday, April 20, 2012

Follow Friday: Four Fill-In Fun . . . (Try saying THAT 3 times)! . . .


Trying a new Blog Hop today.  It's called Four Fill-In Fun.  Each Friday Hilary at Feeling Beachie gives you four statements with blanks left in them.  Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to fill them in.  Here are the statements:

1.       I always forget___
2.       I never __without___
3.      Recently I started to _____, and it has helped tremendously!
4.      If I had to find a date, the last place I would look for one is _______.

So here are my fill-ins:

1.  I always forget EVERYTHING!
2. I never start my day without a diet Coke.
3. Recently I started to wear a C-PAP machine for my Sleep Apnea, and it has helped tremendously!
4. If I had to find a date, the last place I would look for one is outside a divorce attorney's office. 

Thursday, April 19, 2012

PYHO: Going Back To Work . . .

When Jason was born, just under 13 years ago, we decided I would stay home with him and not work full-time anymore.  Then 2 1/2 years later Andrew came along, so I continued to stay home.  As we were preparing for Andrew to start Kindergarten, I took the tests and classes to be a Substitute Teacher so that I could start working a little more when he started school, but still be around for the kids when they didn't have school.  I took my classes on a Thursday, was supposed to get a TB test on Monday, and then I would be able to start.  Only that Saturday we found out I was pregnant with Sarah Beth.  So those plans were put on hold.  

But now she's going to be starting Kindergarten in the Fall, so I guess it's time for me to go back to work.  (At least RYAN thinks it's time for me to go back to work)!  :(  I was thinking of doing the Substitute Teaching and refocusing on Real Estate on the days I'm not teaching, but he wants me to get a full-time job where I can get insurance for the family. 

Here's my dilemma.  I've been out of the work force for 13 years.  THIRTEEN YEARS.  I have no marketable skills.  So what do I do?  Not to mention, if I get a "real" job, that will mean having to put Sarah in Before/After School Care.  That costs $75 a week.  Of course, on the days they are out of school, that means I'll have to put her in there all day, so that will be more money.  Not to mention summer.  I've been able to spend the summers with the kids since Jason was born.  I won't be able to do that anymore.  And they, at least Sarah, will have to be at the Y program all day, every day, because I'll be at work.  So that's MORE money.  All in all, we're probably talking AT LEAST $7000-$8000 a year for child care, and more than that if we put Jason and Andrew in there also.  

Here's the other part of the problem.  I will be the first to admit that I'm not a very good housekeeper.  I HATE CLEANING HOUSE.  WITH A PASSION.  BUT, I still do it.  I also cook all of the dinners, and I do all of the laundry.  Everyone always has clean socks and underwear and clean clothes.  Plus, I lay Ryan's clothes out for him every morning before work.  If I start working full-time, that will NOT be happening.  We have been married for almost 16 years, and I can count on one hand the number of loads of laundry that he has done since I stopped working full-time.  I remember when we bought this house with the laundry on the same floor as all of the bedrooms.  One of the things he said to me was, "if the laundry is upstairs with us, then I can help you do the laundry."  Do you KNOW how many loads of laundry he's done since we moved here EIGHT YEARS AGO?  ONE.  That's right, ONE.  MAYBE TWO, but I think just ONE.  So yeah, he's a BIG help with the laundry.  NOT!  Again, that would be changing.  If I'm working full-time, I would NOT be the only one doing the laundry, the cooking and cleaning.  Our house might not be spotless, but at least HE doesn't have to do it.  NOW.  But again, that would change.  

The kids are getting older so we don't have a lot of wake ups in the middle of the night, but we do still have them on occasion, and I'm the one that always gets up with them, or stays up with Sarah if we can't get her to go to sleep, because he has to work in the morning, and I don't.  But if I'm working, I definitely won't be getting up every time.  He'll have to be doing some of that as well.  And getting the kids to before/after school care?  That's another thing we'd both have to take turns on.  The way things are now, he gets home between 5:30-6 and we eat dinner when he gets home.  Then the kids help me clean up from dinner and we're finished and playing outside or watching a movie by 6:30 or 7 pm.  But if I start working full-time I won't be home until at least 5:30 or 6, which means we'll just be starting to cook dinner at that time, and it'll be 7:30 or 8 before we're finished.  And again, I WON'T be doing it all by myself.  

Also, he travels.  Quite a bit.  And he said it's likely to be increased.  When I was planning on substitute teaching, I just figured I'd call myself off on the days he's out of town.  But if I'm going to be working full-time, that's not going to be an option.  So I'll be doing it all by myself, AND working full-time.  Just the thought of it stresses me out!  :(

I also pay all of the bills, do all of the grocery shopping and clothes shopping, take the kids to the doctor, pick them up when they're sick, pick them up when they have to stay after school for an event or practice, schedule all the things that need to be fixed around the house and make sure I'm here to let them in, do all of the Christmas shopping, and basically everything else that needs to be done.  EXCEPT the outside.  I don't cut grass or mess with the yard.  He does all that.  But I pretty much do EVERYTHING else.  And that's okay.  I took all of that on because he's working full-time and making the money for our family, and I'm not. 

I GET where he's coming from.  I really do.  I know he has to be envious that he's the one that has to get up and go to work every day, especially to a very stressful job, and I don't have to.  I get to sit around all day, watch my soaps and eat Bon Bons. Come on, you know that's what everyone thinks SAHM's do.  (I don't do either by the way.  Haven't watched a soap since before Andrew was born and don't think I've ever even HAD a Bon Bon).  So yeah, I GET it.  I know that has to suck.  And if I could get a job making the money he makes, then we could switch roles.  But I can't.  NOT going to happen.  But having BOTH of us work so he doesn't feel envious anymore, isn't the answer either.  Because if he thinks he's stressed now, wait until he works all day then has to come home and cook dinner and do laundry.  How stressed do you think he'll be THEN?!

So what do I do?  Do I get a job, any job, and just keep my mouth shut and go back to work?  Because I think once he realizes how much more stress it'll put on HIM, he'll decide after a few months that it's not the right decision and that I should quit.  Or do I try to convince him of this BEFORE starting a job?  But I think until he actually SEES and EXPERIENCES it, he's always going to think me working full-time is the answer.  And I don't know how to convince him otherwise, unless, like I said, he actually experiences it.

By the way, let me add that we have NO payments.  Our house is paid off and we don't have any car payments.  (And never will again).  We max out our 401K contributions and have separate ESA's for the kids that we fund every month with the maximum amount allowed.  We also have 3-6 months expenses in savings.  (THANK YOU DAVE RAMSEY)!  :)  So the point is, we don't NEED me to go back to work in order to live.  Yes, the money I make will give us more spending money and let us bulk up our savings more in case something happens, but we don't NEED it to live on.  I think that's very important to the situation.  If we needed the money to live, then I wouldn't even balk at it.  But we don't.

So now I'm asking, what would YOU do?  Am I wrong to think this way?  Am I acting like a spoiled "East End Housewife?"  Should I just keep my mouth shut and go back to work even though I will likely just be making enough money for insurance and child care with a little left for spending money?  Since I haven't worked in 13 years, it's not like I'm going to find a job paying 50K or more a year.  I'll be lucky to make 30K.   Not to mention all of the stress it's going to put on both of us.  What would you do?

Pouring My Heart Out with Shell today.  If you haven't checked out her blog, you REALLY should.  She ROCKS!  Plus, she has the most AWESOME name EV-ER!  :)

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Being The Parent Of A Teen . . .

My son is 12.  He'll be 13 in 2 months.  TWO MONTHS!  Seriously, where does the time go?  It seems like only yesterday he was gracing us with his presence.  And now, he's going to be 13.  THIRTEEN.  I'm SO not ready for this.  

And I see the signs of teenagerism, (yes, I made that word up, but I think it's appropriate), in him every day.  Jason has always been my quiet one.  He definitely doesn't have a lot of Kremer blood in him, because talking has never been his strong point.  But now?  Now he talks even less.  Now getting more than one or two words out of him is like pulling teeth.  Now he would bury himself in his room all day every day, if I would let him. 

But honestly, I don't know how I'm going to handle the teen years.  I'm already scared.  I'm already dreading it.  I'm already worrying about the person my son is going to turn into.  

For those of you that are IN the teen years or have made it out on the other side-how did you survive?  Should I be as panicked as I am, or is it easier than I imagine?  Is my sweet little boy going to stay that way, or is he going to become a little demon? 

Thursday, April 5, 2012

PYHO: ADD in Adults?

Have you ever heard of ADD in adults?  Do you think it's very common?  I SERIOUSLY think I have it, and it seems like it's getting worse the older I get.  I've never been diagnosed, but I feel like I've always had some form of it, even when I was a kid.  I can't focus on anything for more than 10 or 15 minutes at a time.  Even if we're watching a movie, I can't just watch the movie; I'm reading a book, playing/working on the computer, playing a game.  I can't just sit still and watch the movie.  

It seems like the older I get, the worse I get.  It's VERY frustrating.  I feel like my mind is going in 10 different directions all at the same time, but I'm not getting anything accomplished.  I will start working on something, and I'll only last for about 10 or 15 minutes and then I have to move on to something else.  

I don't know what to do.  I don't know if I CAN do anything.  But I do know that I'm tired of dealing with it.  I'm tired of my mind racing in 10 different directions at the same time.  I'm tired of not getting things accomplished because I can't stay focused long enough.  I'm just tired.