So today is my baby girl's 3rd birthday. I can't believe she's 3 already. HECK, I can't even believe she's HERE! She was SO not planned!
I still remember when we found out I was pregnant with her. The night we found out we were driving down the road talking about all the things we didn't have . . . stroller, carseat, baby bed, bottles, bibs, NOTHING! I was SO scared and so overwhelmed. Andrew was going to be starting Kindergarten in the Fall and Jason was going to be in 3rd grade. How could we add a brand new baby? Was that fair to the boys? How would they react? Would they feel like we were taking something from them?
Ryan told the kids as soon as we found out. He also told his Dad. They were all THRILLED! After we left there, we went to my parents to tell them. Mom was home, but Dad was at O'Connell's watching the UK game. Mom was thrilled, of course. She told me to call Dad at O'Connell's. So I called him and said, "guess what we're having in a few months?" That's all I said. To which he replied, "We're getting our girl!" Where'd that come from?! He called me back about 5 minutes later and told me he got more high fives than he does when UK wins. For those of you that don't my dad, that's a HUGE deal. I called Laura the next day and she was so excited she screamed and wound up with a bloody nose. She said, "It's a girl!" Everyone kept telling me that it was a girl, but I kept telling them that we don't make girls.
I was almost 8 weeks pregnant with her before I even knew that I was pregnant. When I went to the doctor my numbers were low, so they were afraid it was an ectopic pregnancy and they sent me for an ultrasound to make sure that it wasn't. I was TERRIFIED!!! I remember talking to Laura on the way there and she said to me, "Everything is going to be fine. This is God's way of telling you, 'you're not sure how you feel about this baby? I'll show you.' You're going to get there and everything is going to be fine, and you're going to be thrilled." So I went for the ultrasound and everything was fine. I was SO excited when I walked out of there. I tried calling Laura back to tell her that everything was okay, and I was crying so hard that I couldn't even talk to her. I was SSSSOOOO glad that everything was okay.
The whole time I was pregnant I kept saying, "God's plan's different than mine! God's plan's different than mine!" Luckily, He's A LOT smarter than I am!
Later on in the pregnancy my test results showed that she might have other medical issues. So we had ANOTHER emergency ultrasound. At this ultrasound we found out that she was a SHE. The nurse said, "I wouldn't paint the room yet." To which Ryan replied, "Oh don't worry, she'll have me paint it!" Needless to say it was a very eventful pregnancy. As soon as she was born, Ryan said, "She's healthy!" and I just couldn't stop crying. Not only was she healthy, but she was BEAUTIFUL!!!
The boys were SO excited. They stayed at my parents the night she was born. As soon as they woke up my dad told them that if they hurried and got ready then they could come to the hospital before school and see her. He said he's never seen them move so fast! I had bought them shirts for when she was born. Jason's said "I'm The Biggest Brother" and Andrew's said "I'm The Bigger Brother". When they came to the hospital that morning I gave them their shirts and they wore them to school with pride. They couldn't wait to come back after school and see and hold her.
She has been an AMAZING blessing to our family. I can't even imagine what our lives would be like without her. I always tell people that we were happy and content before she was born, but now we are COMPLETE. She is definitely a gift from God, and I'm so glad he knows more than I do!
I love you Sarah!